One Year Anniversary: IAMRENEESHIAN
It has been a long time—I know. November tore my spirit down and blogging was the last thing on my mind. That month and afterwards, challenged me mentally, physically, emotionally, ACADEMICALLY. All of ‘em. And as a result, my commitment to the blog was not there. However, I am back for a special post about surprise, surprise: my blog
We are near the end of 2020 and I could not enter the new year without a special post commemorating my one-year blogging anniversary. November marked the month where I first created my website: IAMRENEESHIAN! I cannot believe it has already been a year. Especially considering the turn of events this year gave us; I am thankful to witness my first anniversary. From this first year of blogging alone, there were numerous lessons I’ve learned that I’d like to share with y’all.
The idea of starting a blog came years before I actually decided to create one. One of the reasons being my insecurities with writing. Ironically, writing is one of my favourite outlets to express myself and I wanted to tackle my self-doubt.
Furthermore, as a Black womxn I do not feel safe stating my thoughts a lot of open environments—IAMRENEESHIAN is that safe space for me. Blackness is a HUGE part of my identity and frankly my experiences being a visible Black womxn are a threat to others. Because of that, my blog is unapologetic, where I take up as much space as I want to. Moreover, through this mode of expression, I aim to learn, unlearn and heal. Life without self-reflection is meaningless and a blog is a great way to document that.
Maintaining a blog is not easy in the slightest and I’d never convince y’all it is a smooth process. For instance, consistency is my weakness moving forward to the New Years’ that I need to overcome. Also, motivation hand in hand with writer’s block; a global pandemic and online schooling, I was overwhelmed and technologically drained. Those all simultaneously played a role and I had to give myself the necessary time off.
Additionally, since I lacked consistency, crafting my writer’s voice was difficult for the simple reason that I am not used to listening to myself. For years, I’ve struggled to read my writing; blocking out my voice and denying its importance. Moving forward, to get over my insecurities towards writing I must thoroughly understand that I have a voice that deserves space. And, like most activities, it takes time, practice and patience; I must give myself grace.
Ultimately, I do not regret starting IAMRENEESHIAN.COM. I am finally making time for doing activities I want to do, which is write. Blogging has given me a drive that I never thought I had in me. In addition, I’ve learned self-accountability through scheduling and maintaining deadlines for blog posts. Additionally, several Black womxn reached out to me and related to my words—it is amazing.
Now more than ever, my determination is to write more about personal experiences and hopefully write for others. Towards the end of the year, I wrote forSisi Magazine (CLICK HERE)—Black owned. It was an amazing opportunity to write something meaningful and share to a wider audience. Next year, I would like to try again for another publication again; maybe two who knows.
To wrap up this longer than expected post, in only a year, my blog has blossomed and grown so much. I am a private person; I hate vulnerability, yet I am ready to further my thoughts and write personal content (sounds like a new year resolution)! I look forward to writing more content of being black and femme; education; romance (non-existent) and healing. I am excited for 2021 year and where my thoughts take me!
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Renee Shian xx